army wife vs big ( English drama vs korean drama)

Now i am watching this two drama... actually i dont know how long do i take to finish watching this drama since i really really really have a lot work to do.... but still i want to find time for myself to watch at least one episode of this drama... it will going to be quite boring if u only study right??? hehehehehe but since when i really "rajin" to study... about these two drama i think it quite a interesting drama to watch... i can relax my mind when watching this drama... so let see how will i take to finish watching it... hehehehehe... :)

16/12/2012 (maroon 5) hehehehe

first of all i dont have class today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! mmg best rsanya x de kls ari nie sbb ari nie ada satu je kls n kls tu btl so that mean i dont have class for whole day... hehehehe... now let talk about maroon 5... i started to love maroon 5 when i watched the voice... adam levine is one of the coach in the voice.. so that is how i start to fall in love with adam and his band... hehehehe.... actually i'm not listen to his songs but i just to love hear payphone , move like jagger, this love, one more night... that's all that i liked... about adam he is cute and handsome i think... he has such a awesome voice... i really really really like it..... hehehe... i love to see his live performance... that really make my heart flutter.. huhuhu....

14/12/2012

it really a long time i do not wrote anything here.... my subject for this sem is become harder harder n harder for me.. i dont know whether i can pass through it well... i dont know whether i can make my parent happy with me again.. something that i sure that i really really want is i just want my parent to always pray for me.. we are only human being.. sometimes we do not know we make mistake until you realize it... even how many days or month or years you take to make u realize that u make mistake then try ur best to change it cause it will never be late for u to change... it will never to late until u die... if u die then it will be too late for u to change... we make mistake in our life so we can learn from it... sometimes u learn from others mistake... life is full with challenge... setiap ujian yg Allah bgi pda kita adlh utk menguji kita.... utk menguji keimana kita kpdNya.. bersabarlah dgn setiap ujian yg datang kerana pasti ada hikmah di sebalik ujian itu... bila kita mdpt kesenangan jgn lah kita lupa kepadaNya... always remember Him.. that will make ur mind and heart at ease.. always tell all ur secret n problem to Him.. cause He will give the solution for u... He will never told ur secret to anyone n He will know what is in ur heart n what are u thinking and u will never can cheat him... He is the best kekasih for u... He will understanding everything u feel... u will meet him every day n 5 times in a day... He will be with u when u happy,scared,sad n even when u sick... He will never leave u n will always stay with u but u are the one who is leaving Him.... He also give His love letter to us... kita ptt bsyukur ngan ape yg diberikanNya kpda kita.. walaupun ssh utk kita harungi dugaan yg dtg tpi ingatlah kita x prnh keseorg
He will there for us.. what we need  do is just berdoa.. Dia akan mdgr setiap doa kita.. He is the best listener... walaupun ape jua keputusan yg kita ingin lakukan mintalah petunjuk driNya supaya we will not make a wrong decision... n jgn suka mengata kat org sbb kita x kan thu mybe perkara yg sama akn blaku kpda kita... ape yg ptt kita lakukan adlh mohon dijauhi dripda semua itu blaku kpda kita... that will be much much much more better...

2/12/2012

oh my blog.... is really a long long long time i did not write something here... guess what i'm in KT right now!!!!!!!!!!!!!! does it sound that i'm happy being here n the answer is :( :( ... i dont know why that i feel nervous n scared being here... apa yg aku takutkan adlh ada sorang lecturer yg agak garang akn mengajar aku sem nie.. i have tried to avoid being in her class but u know what this sem dia mengajar aku jgk... i dont know what will going to happen... just wait n see n pray.......... today is also my cousin birthday!!!!!!!!!!!! hope she always happy in her life and dimurahkan rezeki... n i also want to wish her happy birthday!!!! love u so much... muah!!! muah!!!! hehehehehe...

2 nov 2012

i really piss off with Derek!!!!! why he suddenly on his uncle side.. i understand that he is his uncle but he is the one to kill ur sister Derek.. n that is not a mistake...i'm very sure about that.. i hope Scott will not join their peck cause they are totally crazy.... i just want to punch n kick him!!!!!!! he is so so so so stupid!! i hate him now but i still feel pity for Derek when he got caught by Allison aunt.. poor him...(mixed feeling)

teen wolf (drama that I like now) :-)

now i'm totally fall in love with this drama which  is teen wolf.. you all want to know why i like drama:-

i) cause i like to see any movies or drama related to vampire,werewolf, n zombie.. i like to see that kind of drama....
ii) just like usual i will going to find who is the attractive guy in that movie n i found it.. he is so cute and handsome.. i really like him.. i love everything about him even when he speak.. i  love to see the way he speak.. i totally like him now!!!! hehehe..

    So let me told you what this drama is all about.. Teen wolf is about young boy in a high school who get bitten by the werewolf.. His name is Scott... So now he is a werewolf  because of that bite... at first Scott think that Derek Hale(my bf hehehehe) who the one that bite him but unfortunately Scott was wrong about it cause Derek is not the one who bite him.. the one who bite him is the alpha.. which nobody know who is the alpha is... Scott has a best friend name Stile.. Only he know that Scott is a werewolf.. Scott fall in love with the werewolf hunter daughter... i forget what her name.. Scott know about her father.. but he still like her.. unfortunately their relationship do not going well or mybe can say they break up cause of the situation that happened in their high school which they and their friends trapped in there with the alpha.. but no one about that accept for Scott and Stile.. now Scott just want to find a cure that can make him normal again... he ask Derek about it and Derek said he need to kill the want who bite him which is the alpha... Derek also said that he can kill the alpha for him and for the returned Scott need to help him track down the alpha... Derek want to kill the alpha because the alpha is the one who kill his sister, Laura,. and surprisingly Derek uncle is the alpha.. so Derek got into fight with his uncle and i dont know what happen after that.. what will happen do Derek and Stile... cause the alpha is much much much stronger that Derek... will they going to survive?? that question will be answered in the next episode.. :-)

my guy
(i know that he is not that handsome but to me he is hot guy... hehehe)

before n on hari raya aidiladha

ok i know it is to late to talk about it... but i been lazy this past few days to write in my blog.. so today i will tell u all about my hari raya aidiladha.. before hari raya aidiladha my mom n i went shopping!!!!!!!!!!! on my hari raya aidiladha we ate pizza... my beloved sister did it.. so we ate pizza on hari raya aidiladha... can u believe it??? believe it or not it is true... hehehe.. n my hari raya went well n me myself gain a lot of weight.. i really really really love to it now.. so what can i do about it.. hope i can control my weight n i really really dont want to be FAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i will going crazy if my kebaya do not fit with me anymore... so now i need to diet but it is going to work out for me... hmmmm....

Think before u do something!!! :)

In whatever u do think it first before u do it.. cause after u do something that u feel is wrong and u think after u done it then is no use for u to regret it.. cause that situation will haunt you with the feel of guilty.. so dont ever cross the border of ur principle... always hold on tight to ur own principle cause that will make ur life more manageable n peaceful... dont ever try to break ur life principle cause sometimes u will regret it if u break ur own principle in ur life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MeM0ry

Sometimes u just want to erase all ur bad or worst memory and dont want to recall it ever n ever n ever again.... but what can u do... sometimes u will just going to remember it back.... or someone who just keep bring up the past n make u remember it back... how i really really wish i just can erase everything n forget every stupid thing that i done in the past... but the question is can i do that???? is will going to nice if i can do that... :)

On My Last Exam!!!

Ok.. Let me try to recall back my memory on the day of my last exam happened.... ermmm... just like usually i feel really nervous cause it really hard for me to remember what i already read since i always study last minute... that what will happen if u study last minute... hehehehe... i think my omt 115 examination when well but i still afraid if i made a lot of mistake when answering it.. hmm.. but now i'm at home!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i cannot describe how much happy i am being at  home.. where  i can rest my mind n enjoy my day with my beloved family... i officially announce that the book of my life in the university for sem 2 is closed!!!!!!!!!!! now i will start a new chapter in my life n of course in a new book... :-)

Fourth day exam

On the fourth day of my examination.. it is OMT 182 exam.... i dont know whether i can do it well in that exam but something for sure is that all my exam for this sem is quite bad for me n it really make me worry.... i still one more paper before i can go home... the last paper is on friday.. i mean this friday... hope everything is going to be well n i really cannot wait to go back home... i really miss my whole family!!!!!!!!!

miss them a lot!!!!!!!!!!!!

third day exam

On the third day of my exam... it is BBM110 examination... i think that it going well but there are some answer that i'm not sure... after finish that exam.. sha, idah n me plan to go to the beach after asar.. hehehehe... we went back to college quite late.. after maghrib... n last night there is a man that ask me to be his gf.. i'm not sure whether he is serious or just playing around... but i think that is too fast... cause we just know each other.. so after asking from others opinion n finally decide that we are much better to be friend first.. i think that is the best decision that i should made.... :)

second day exam

ctu exam is on 4/10/2012... that is mean it is after bel exam.. is quite stress for me to read ctu cause ctu just like history to me.. n i did not like it that much.. my ctu exam does not go well.. there were a lot of mistakes that i do.. hok ngarut pun byk.. so x thulah ape yg nak jdi... after finish ctu exam idah, sha n i went to pantai pandak for release tension.. hahahhaha..

first day exam

i call my mom before exam n her voice seem like she is crying... i wonder why... i ask her what wrong with her but she said she is fine... i know she crying n mybe there is something that make her sad.. i cried when hearing her voice.. i dont why i cried.. after she msg me she said good luck n do well in my exam cause aku adlh hrpan dia.. i cried again after read it... i dont know why that my brain blank when i enter examination room... aku rsa otak aku kosong... knp??? aku sndri x thu... it is true that i answer all the questions but i really disappointed with it cause my essay is really worse like hell n there is some question that i do not sure the answer is... it really worse... i dont want my mom be disappointed with me... what i can say is my bel exam is worse n i dont know how much that i get from it.... rmai org yg siap cpt mjwb.. best nya jdi dio org sbb dpt jwb tp aku msh lg tgh fikir idea utk tulis essay.. cause my mind when blank when come to essay part... hmmmm...... :(

3/10/2012

Esk akn start my final exam for sem 2... it really really worrying me since my carry mark really not that good.. i still hoping that everything will going to be well n i can have a good pointer for this sem... hope i can do better in my final...

1/10/2012

when we grow up we learn a lot of thing in our life. some of our experience can be our best lesson. i am really happy being at home.. i feel peace being here.. talking with my mom n went shopping with her was the best moment in my life.. seeing my siblings faces make my heart feel relieved... i love being home n i hope time can stop so i can always be here n i dont want to go back to my college.. i will create a lot of trouble again if i be there... do i like that guy??? i'm not sure about that but something i will make sure that is i will not going to fall in love with him cause i know i cannot do that... whatever he did to me is already in the past i change a lot cause of a lot of problem i face in this sem.. but i need my old self back... i dont want to be a sad girl anymore.. what i need now is Allah love.. aku tahu Dia telah sediakan seseorg utk aku.. di mana pun si dia berada aku bhrp agar Allah menemukan aku dgn si dia di suatu hri nnt.. aku x slhkan sape2 pun ttg diriku berubah krna aku tahu mslh yg dtg adlh bpunca dri diri sendiri jgn suka slhkan org lain cause u need to check yourself first before blaming others.. i need to open ur heart to hear all the advice all the critic n trime semua tu ngan hati yg tbuka.. i just want to have a great n happy life... everything that i done along in my life for this sem i will remember n learn from it.. i hope that i will not going to make a same mistake again.. :)

22/9/2012

my examination just around the corner... it make me feel more more more nervous... aku bukan nak bangga diri tp kan jdi satu2nya AD in ur faculty make ur life difficult cause everyone will watching for u.. it make me more more more afraid.... aku x thulah klu aku msih leh dpt AD x utk sem nie... tp hrp2 dptlah... tp aku x thu leh dapt x.. hidup kian berubah skrang tp knp aku berubah itu yg jdi persoalan... bila kita kerja dlm group pelbagai mslh yg timbul... n still smpai skrang aku msih lg punya mslh bila kerja grouping... hmm.. kene mrh sdh nak jdi biasa dlm hdup aku... walaupun pada mulanya aku x suka msuk debat tp kerana debatlah aku dpt keyakinan diri.. berani utk mencuba walaupun slh.... alhamdullillah aku berjaya wat presentation omt115 aku tnpa membaca di slide n aku juga bjaya wat mock meeting aku tanpa membaca script n skrang aku dah blh kuatkan suara aku bila membaca di dpan.. walaupun perasaan takut masih ada tp alhamdullillah aku blh mengatasinya skrang... aku mula untk blaja memaafkan org lain walaupun ape yg mereka wat kat aku bkn kerana aku nak tunjuk baik tp kerana aku rsa aku tidak layak utk mrhkan org itu... kerana aku juga mcm dio org sentiasa melakukan kesilapan... aku amat bhrp agar Allah masih membuka pintu kemaafan wat aku sblm aku bjumpa denganNya... aku ingin hdup aku kembali seperti dlu n gembira bsama ngan family aku... hope segalanya bjlanan dgan baik waktu examination aku nnt... :)

pic smsa hri rya di uitm kt, majlis dekan n pjlnan ke uitm dungun

16/9/2012

Dunia merupakan sebuah pentas bgi setiap manusia n kita sbgai manusia ciptaan Allah akn menjadi pelakonnya.. Setiap detik n setiap saat segala perbuatan kita akn diperhatikan olh Dia yg Maha Berkuasa.. Walaupun begitu walaupun aku menyederi hakikat itu n aku mengetahui nya tetapi insan inilah yg pling suka membuat dosa... knp n mengapa????????? setelah Dia telah memberikan aku segalanya... aku thu kejayaan yg kita perolehi x akn kekal lama.. kerana Allah berhak mengambilnya balik... kerana itu adlh hakNya... mmg btul kita akn kembali kepadaNya setelah kita menghadapi kesukaran n meninggalkanNya setelah kita senang.. Aku juga blh dikatakan begitu.. Setiap dosa yg aku lakukan aku akn lakukan nya lagi n lagi... N Allah x pernah meninggalkan aku.. segala yg aku ingini msih blh tercapai.. dan aku x thu mcm mna utk aku kembali kepadaNya... makin lama makin aku alpa dgn agamaku sendiri.. aku kdg2 ttnya adakah aku hanya islam hanya pada nama shja???? aku lupa akn segala2nya.... siapakah aku yg sbnrnya??? apa yg aku ingin sbnrnya??? knp aku sntiasa melakukan dosa yg sama????????? aku x de jwpan utk itu semua... aku diibaratkan seorang manusia yg sudah tiada perasaan... n kdg2 aku x thu ape sbnrnya prasaan yg aku rasai... sedih/mrh/benci/kecewa ataupun ape.... hmmm... kehidupan itu penuh dgn dugaan n cabaran... n kita x akn prnh berhenti ngan 2 bnda tesebut sehingga nyawa dicabut dri jasad ini... rupa yg cntik tdk akan membwa seseorg itu kemna2 klu kita x mempunyai akhlak yg cntik.. apa yg sbnrnya yg aku inginkan dri diriku sbnrnya.. that the question that i tried to find the answer.... still looking until now.......

12/9/2012

makin kita besar makin byk bnda yg kita lakukan.. sometimes something yg kita mungkin fikir kita x akn buat kita blh jd kita akn wat bnda tu... kdg2 x terlintas di fikiran kita yg kita akn wat bnda tu... hmmm... kita hanya blh merancang tpi tuhan juga ada perancangan yg tsendiri yg jauh lbh hebat... aku kdg2 x fhm ngan diri aku sendiri...  knp aku jdi mcm nie.. what is wrong with me... Ya Allah please help me supaya aku leh kembali ke pangkal jln-MU.... aku dah letih jdi mcm nie.. secara jujurnya aku tidak suka ngan diri aku sekarang... i need to change n become someone that is much more better than who i am now... something i never expect i will do it n something i hate to do it n now i let it happen to me.. what wrong with me.. itulah dlu duk kata org lain.. skrang u feel for yourself... life become more difficult to me now... i need to work hard to change myself... i dont want to die like this... i hope there is still a time for me to change myself before i meet Him... :)

10/9/2012

Aku masih lg teringatkan kenangan aku bsama ngan seorg kwn... walaupun aku x pasti sama ada aku nie menganggap dia sbgai seorg kwn biasa atau sahabat baik tpi ape yg pasti aku menceritakan byk perkara pda  si dia... i miss every moment with her... i really hope everything can back to normal... but i cannot turn back time that already past... mybe i hurt her so much... but something for sure i will remember all the best memory i have with her.. cause i know i will  not going to meet someone like her anymore... hmmm... btul kata org tasik di hati seorg ppuan mmg mudah t'usik... but i need to strong am i.. sometimes i really hope that i can be who i am just like in my high school days... no one know me except for my friends... my life much more better like that... mybe aku tlalu mengikut emosi aku... and i really hope that Allah will help to manage my own feeling... :)

8/9/2012

i hate myself now.... really really really hate it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i just can feel that myself is changed a lot right now... but what i should do about that.. i'm really stressful with myself... what can i do to make myself just like before.. when i pray i just can feel that is something wrong with me... i dont feel anything when i am prayer.. i feel empty... that is not something right... Oh God is happening to me... why am i being like this... my life feel empty.. sometimes i feel like i dont have feeling... what should i do.... is really make my life turn up side down.... i do not really like this way... i hate it a lottttttttttttttttttttttttt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

friendship

kita x kan thu brape lama kita akn bkwn ngan seseorg tu.. kadang2 kita akn wat silap dlm pshabatan n mybe kesilapan yg kita lakukan itu blh t'ulang skali lg... kita hanya manusia biasa yg sentiasa wat silap.. ape yg pnting to that friend i just want to tell her that i never feel want to revenge on what she did to me.. cause there is nothing i can get from it.... mybe i make a lot of mistake to her n she should tell me honestly about it so i can understand it well... if she really feel that way n i will respect what ever decision she made... cause i dont want her to feel that way again... i hope she will happy forever n can much more better friend than me... i assume this is wht Allah destiny for us... i hope she can live happily can still smile when seeing each other cause i dont us to be like stranger cause of it... :-)

29 August 2012

sometimes i just dont know how control myself... my result become more worst n worst... i did not why... but already expected it.. why am being like this.. this not who i am... i  only got 63/100 for my assign n for presetation i only got 78... cause i reading the text not presenting it... whether i am sad or happy with it i dont know.. i just cannot find the answer in myself... i just feel that i am going further away from dean list in this sem... i already expected it.. cause i know that i cannot always maintain same pointer just like my last sem.. i really do love my mom so much... i want to her happy since i never made she happy in my school life... she is everything to me... my parent gave me everything that i want n now i really afraid whether i can made them happy... hmmmm... what i should do... am i not qualified to be a university student???? i dont know what i really feel right now... whether i am sad or disappointed... i do not know myself already... why am i being like this... for how long am going to continue being like this... i need to stand up back for my mom... i dont her cry because of anymore... i want like my friends mimi,nik,meda n jun... they always good in their education... i want to be like them... i really hoping that i can still having hope to get in dean list for this sem... i really hope for that... aku bhrp agar Allah mpermudahkan segalanya utk aku... only God know me much more better... :)

5/8/2012

today i know what in her heart... thanks for being honest... but can we have a time together to talk about it for the last time... actually i really want to have talk with u about that matter n want to talk it in peace situation.. n being honest n dont ever try to tell any excuses cause i dont want to hear that i want to hear ur reason... just the two of us talk about it.. n settle once for all... i will always going to be ur friend.... can u do that for me??? hmmm... i'm also not a perfect person n i know that i already hurt ur feeling... whatever u did to me i just want to assume it as a dream that never happen... cause there are a lot of memory that we created together as a friend... i still want to trust u just like before my dear friend... just give me time to adopt the situation.... n please dont be silent n left me alone when u dont like about something... just tell it directly to me cause sometimes it quite hurt when u do like that.... so i really hope that we can have a time to talk about that matter again face to face... so we can solve it... let talk about it with a clear head... :)

2/8/2012

Sometime even your friend hurt ur feeling but it will recover cause the nice memory that u have created with her or him.... that is how i am... i just cannot be mad someone for such a long time... it mybe take a lot of time for my feeling to recover from it but when she or he ask me or speak to me i still want to reply it nicely even how bad that person do to me... hmmm.. last sunday i fast-breaking outside with my friend at pizza hut... we order quite a lot of food for two people to eat... but it an enjoyable time cause i have a friend to fast-breaking with me... on 31 july my little beloved brother, Adib, had his birthday n now he is 1 years old.. happy birthday my dear Adib... K.long always love u so much!!!!!! i also had the bad quiz ever in my office subject.. i cannot answer it well n i absolutely disappointed with myself.. even my mom is ok but i still feel it does not ok... i really dont want to break my parent heart.. hope that i still got better mark for it... my promise to me that on friday which is one day before hari raya she want to make nasi ayam... i'm so happy for it cause i miss to eat my mom cook.... :)

31/7/2012

there is something that make me pretty annoyed today... this what you get when considering other people heart.. if only this you from it then it must be more more more more better to a heartless person to that person... from now on i will not going to considerate her feeling anymore n she really managed make me hate her so so so much... i know being this way is wrong but she is totally rude n dont know to respect others.. i dont think that she dont know anything about it.. i really hate that person now... even seeing her face make me hate more... i know it not inappropriate to be this way but i dont why i get angry like this... n i really hope that Allah show me the way to remove this feeling cause i know there is nothing that i can get from being angry and hate toward her... so i dont want to waste my time cause hating somebody... :-)

28/7/2012

 I really do miss my mom... when i talk to her yesterday i feel like i want to cry... is really not fun when you apart from your family... is feel like something is missing... i do feel lonely without my family with me... i only can come back home on 15/8... i miss her cooking... hmmmm... my stomach is getting well today... i felt much more better today... is really great to my stomach back to normal... hehehehe... i finally finish watching personal taste... i think In Hee really love Gae In as her friends... cause from what In Hee did when they are still friends shows that she love her like her family... mybe she just to ego to admit it cause she just stab
her friend back from behind... what Gae In said is true if she continue behaving like this no one will stay beside her... she will continue to live alone the whole life... yesterday i chatting with this guy that really believe in science n said the Quran is made by human kind n he also believe that people want to explore Prophet Muhammad grave because want to know whether Prophet Muhammad is really exist or not... hmm.. that really make me feel annoying... he is too believe in science then what should i say.. mybe i not a great muslim that know everything about my own religion but i still learning it n i know what my believe is totally right... :)