29 August 2012

sometimes i just dont know how control myself... my result become more worst n worst... i did not why... but already expected it.. why am being like this.. this not who i am... i  only got 63/100 for my assign n for presetation i only got 78... cause i reading the text not presenting it... whether i am sad or happy with it i dont know.. i just cannot find the answer in myself... i just feel that i am going further away from dean list in this sem... i already expected it.. cause i know that i cannot always maintain same pointer just like my last sem.. i really do love my mom so much... i want to her happy since i never made she happy in my school life... she is everything to me... my parent gave me everything that i want n now i really afraid whether i can made them happy... hmmmm... what i should do... am i not qualified to be a university student???? i dont know what i really feel right now... whether i am sad or disappointed... i do not know myself already... why am i being like this... for how long am going to continue being like this... i need to stand up back for my mom... i dont her cry because of anymore... i want like my friends mimi,nik,meda n jun... they always good in their education... i want to be like them... i really hoping that i can still having hope to get in dean list for this sem... i really hope for that... aku bhrp agar Allah mpermudahkan segalanya utk aku... only God know me much more better... :)

5/8/2012

today i know what in her heart... thanks for being honest... but can we have a time together to talk about it for the last time... actually i really want to have talk with u about that matter n want to talk it in peace situation.. n being honest n dont ever try to tell any excuses cause i dont want to hear that i want to hear ur reason... just the two of us talk about it.. n settle once for all... i will always going to be ur friend.... can u do that for me??? hmmm... i'm also not a perfect person n i know that i already hurt ur feeling... whatever u did to me i just want to assume it as a dream that never happen... cause there are a lot of memory that we created together as a friend... i still want to trust u just like before my dear friend... just give me time to adopt the situation.... n please dont be silent n left me alone when u dont like about something... just tell it directly to me cause sometimes it quite hurt when u do like that.... so i really hope that we can have a time to talk about that matter again face to face... so we can solve it... let talk about it with a clear head... :)

2/8/2012

Sometime even your friend hurt ur feeling but it will recover cause the nice memory that u have created with her or him.... that is how i am... i just cannot be mad someone for such a long time... it mybe take a lot of time for my feeling to recover from it but when she or he ask me or speak to me i still want to reply it nicely even how bad that person do to me... hmmm.. last sunday i fast-breaking outside with my friend at pizza hut... we order quite a lot of food for two people to eat... but it an enjoyable time cause i have a friend to fast-breaking with me... on 31 july my little beloved brother, Adib, had his birthday n now he is 1 years old.. happy birthday my dear Adib... K.long always love u so much!!!!!! i also had the bad quiz ever in my office subject.. i cannot answer it well n i absolutely disappointed with myself.. even my mom is ok but i still feel it does not ok... i really dont want to break my parent heart.. hope that i still got better mark for it... my promise to me that on friday which is one day before hari raya she want to make nasi ayam... i'm so happy for it cause i miss to eat my mom cook.... :)