30/6/2012

my family will come here visit me on 13/7/2012... look forward to that day... cause i really really miss all of them... rindu nak mkn mskan umi lg... almost that miss is aku rindu utk cium tgn umi n ayh... i really miss all of that... i miss my sister n my brother laughter.... is really sad is not it.. i hope that will come faster... n if that day come i hope time will stop there... but i know it will never happen right??? hmmm.... what are they doing right now??? i hope all of them are fine over there... :) .... my class start early in the morning tomorrow... so better sleep early.. tp mcm mana nak tido awl klu ptg tdi dah tido... hehehehehehe... pdhal nya aku plan nak study ari nie tp dr study pegi ke stado... hehehehe itulah aku.. pyh btl nak ubah yg itu... byk jgk assignment yg aku x buat lg n lom start lg... bimbang jgk klu x sempat siap... klu bimbang saja klu x buat x jdi jgk kan... aku nie mmg pemalas lah bilalah nak rajin nie.. aku jgk rindu kan kwn2 msa kat sklh dulu.. dah lama x dgr khabar berita hope they all are doing fine... :)

"Everybody has so good an opinion of their own understanding as to think their own way the best"

(Mary Astell)

29/6/2012

tdi tgk cnta kura2.... best lah jgk crita dia... blh thn lah.... msa aku duk asyik duk tgk crite tu aku tfikir agaknya bilalah akan tiba msa utk aku bcinta... hehehehehehe... bunyi gatal kan... blaja pun x abis lg... gatal nak bcinta... hehhehehe...but i just think when my love will come... i just wondering about it.. tgk org bcinta best jgk... tp is that true love is fun or miserable???? hmmmm.... but i still a girl that hoping a guy to me love n   take a good care of me... only God know when my love will come... :) ....... all the homework is done but the question is whether my answer is correct???? lps nie nak cri tajuk yg sesuai utk bbm... hrp2 jumpalah kan... :)

"If a man wit be wandering, let him study the mathematics."

(Francis Bacon) 

28/6/2012

just finish watching 7 petala cinta.... that story really touch my heart... walaupun sehebat mna manusia merancang ttp juga x kan mmpu melawan kuasa Allah... kadang2 kita bercinta dgn org lain tp kwin ngan orh lain... kadang2 kita btunang ngan org lain tp bkwin ngan org lain jgk... hmm... nak wat mcm mna semua itu ketentuan Tuhan... dan Allah lebih mengetahui sstu itu lbh dri kita... :) ..... ari nie kls ada 3 tpi one class cancel... so i only have 2 class today... actually today i plan to go out with my friend to town... but i feel tired so i cancel it... i know it hurt my friend feeling.. but i really tired.... i hope that she forgive me... so tonight i can watch movie n relax... i can enjoy my thursday night... hehehehhehe..... so right now i enjoying my thursday night very much... but before i forgot today i need to do  presentation for bel... x thu lah knp aku terketar2 kat dpan tu... dah lah aku pegang krts kat dpn tu... so  nmpk sgt yg tgn aku ketar... i dont know why i like that... hmmm... malu btl rsanya... hope lps nie x lah mcm tu lg... :)

"But, alas! what poor woman is ever taught that she should have a higher design than to get her a husband"

(Mary Astell) 

27/6/2012

Nichkhun!!!!!!!! why u so charming..... i fall in love with u again.... Nichkhun can i have u... u look so perfect wearing black tuxedo.... so so handsome n look cool.... Ahhhhhh!!!!! i like him again.... Nichkhun meet me in our dream...hahahahahaha... i really lost my mind right... but how could not lost my mind he really good playing piano.... that really make my heart flutter... i really like him again after watching him in the running man.... Nichkhun oppa saranghae.... muah!!! muah!!!! hehehehehe...... ok now back to the real life... today i only have one class... so not really tired today... i still not doing my bel homework yet... i really lazy girl right??? so now i'm going to do bel... need to present it tomorrow... i hope nichkhun come to my dream this night... it will going to nice dream... hehehehehe :) love him....

                                                             my sweet n beloved husband.. :)

"If a man will begin with certainties, he shall end in doubts, but if he will content to begin with doubts, he will shall end in certainties"

(Francis Bacon) 

27/6/2012

btl ape kata org jgn terlalu gembira sgt coz kesedihan pasti menjelma... same just like me... right now i'm doing my office admin... i cannot think right now... i even cannot understand why i'm here right now... :(  i hate myself for being in this kos... why i should be here... i do not deserve to be here... i'm too stupid to be here... i cannot thinking in a creative way like my all friends... they are much better than me... what i know to do is menghafal... that the only thing that i can do... this is really bad for me... isn't it.... i really do not match with them.. they are more smarter than me and know to think creatively not like me... aku mmg rsa x layak berada di sini... tp i really love both my parent.. i dont want make them sad... they are everything to me... anything that i want they try to give it me... i love them so much... i dont want to break their heart.. ape aku nak buat... if only i turn back time i really want to change everything in my life..... i just want to be another person.. i dont want to be who i am right now... i miss my school life... i really miss it so much... aku sentiasa lemas dlm lautan mslh yg aku sndri bina... aku juga slalu lemas dlm ketakutan yg ada dlm dri ini... i hope that i be better person in future coz i dont want to make my family disappointed with me. they are really special for me... i love them so much.... :)

23 June 2012

malas.... itu lah perkataan yg slalu ada dlm diri nie... kenapalah ssh sgt nak buang perasaan mls nie... hmmm... sometimes i just wondering is that fun and happy when fall in love... mybe i dont fall in love yet so i dont know that feeling yet.. and i hope i only fall in love with the right guy... i dont want be a heart broken girl... that really scary.... why suddenly i talking about love.. love is so complicated.... no need to think it... hmmm... why people easy to say they love somebody even we do not know each other.. is so weird... esk class start kol 8... mula dgn class business... i dont like that class n it also a scary class.. aku rsa hari2 aku sntiasa membosankan.. nothing special.... :) :(

"although it has been said by men of more wit than wisdom, and perhaps more malice than either, that women are naturally incapable of acting prudently, or that they are necessarily determined to folly, I must by no means grant it"

(Mary Astell) 

22 June 2012

hmmmmm........ nothing interesting to write but i watched running man this morning... it so funny... n young hwa(sorry if the spelling of his is not correct) really good in finding something without getting catch... for jea suk, suk jin n kwang soo.. they always get out early in the game... i have a lot of assignment i need to do... but now here i am... still try write something on my blog... semlm kat kolej x de elektrik... that make me afraid n in the end i sleep with my friend.. hahahaha..... :)

"if  a man be gracious and courteous to strangers, it shows he is a citizen of the world"

(Francis Bacon) 

                                                 

21 June 2012

tomorrow is holiday!!!!! that is a good news right... hehehehehe... today i'm late about 5 min to go to omt 115 class.. n i get warning for being late to her class... so what i conclude is you cannot go late in this two class which are bel n omt 115... i need to be punctual for that class... hmmm.... i dont  know what to do today.. to study.. i feel really lazy to study.. hmmm.. but something that i sure is i really really fall in love with max changmin... he is so adorable n cute... when i saw he in running man really like it so so much... he look nice in there.. that make me like him.... definitely my friends will get mad at me.. cause she like changmin too... but i just cannot my feeling.. so i'm sorry meda... dont be mad... heheheheheh :)

19/6/2012

i'm so tired today... i only 2 class to attend today but still feel so tired... my class start at 12:15 pm... that the best thing... but still tired cause i still need to attend koko... that really a nightmare for me... i still cannot believe that nur azlin ambia taking a debating class... are u serious????? that really a  something that i never i expected in my life.. hmmm.... today is my first class for debat.... it really scary... i really dont how to survive in that class.... Tuesday will going to be day that i hate... but most interesting is tomorrow i dont have a class.. i can relax for a moment.. i so tired today... i'm so sleepy right now.. want to go to zzzzZzzzzZzz... :)

18/6/2012

hari ini hari aku quite oklah.. msuk kls typing for 3 hours n learn how to do business letter... the format was quite hard for me to remember... OMG!!!! how to make remember it... aku belum start lg study... untuk office admin for this sem kita org kene wat meeting... aku x thu lah mcm mna performance aku... msk kelas bbm pulop.. perkara yg i hate the most when in form 5 timbul kembali... dlm bbm aku kena cri kslhan kata or imbuhan or else.. itu lah perkara yg melemahkan aku.. aku mmg pyh skit nak cri semua kslhan tu... msa form 5 ingat lg aku... kwn2 aku yg lain dah jumpa kesalahan ejaan n kata.. tp aku jumpa satu je...hehehehe.. msk kls admin plop... sir yg ajar aku tu ok... tp yg letihnya dia explain pun in english jgk... tu wat aku ssh nak fhm... ermmm... aku nak wat mcm mana dah tu cra pengajaran dia... hrp2 lps nie blh lah blaja untuk memahami cra pengajaran dia.... :)

17/6/2012

my class start at 8 am... so so so early..... i only have 3 class for today... but it really tired.. i really cant understand why bel always at noon... aku rasa ngantuk sgt waktu mcm tu... hehehehe... mula lah nak wat syarahan lain kat blakang.... hehehehe.... bila lah nak insaf ek.... hehehehe... i really miss my parent at home.. dengki sgt kat org yg nak blik kg this week... not fair.... i also want to go home... but i just cant go home yet.. since my holiday is only for 2 days... so so so sad.... :(

15 Jun 2012

Letihnya hari ini sbb bru blik dri shopping... Beli barang skit... hehehehe... rindu gila kat my family kat rumah... hrp2 dpt blik rumah n peluk all of my family members... :(.... tulah msa duk umh x kan rsa mcm nie... bila bjauhan... you will miss them a lot.... hmmm... malas rsanya nak bsuh bju.... esk jelah bsuh bju.... lmbtnya rsa nak blik umh.... lps nie nak pegi tido jap... hehehehe... lps tu bru fikir nak study... insyallah klu rjin lah... the problem is bila msa lah rjin aku tu nak smpai ye... hehehehehe... :)

13 June 2012

Hari ini nothing special..... hari ini cuma ada 1 kls je.... ermm.. seperti biasa bab2 kump nie mmg mslh bgi aku.. Aku x thu nak group ngan sape... pyh kan... aku sentiasa tersisih bab2 group nie... hurmmm.... aku ada bca cerpen pendek kat penulisan2u.... semua crite yg aku bca kebanyakkan nya cerita sedihh... sebak jdinya aku mlm nie... ada satu cerpen yg menarik minat aku... dlm cerpen itu diceritakan betapa kuat nya cintanya kepda Allah... n aku ttnya pda diriku sndri adakah sekuat itu cintaku kpd Allah... hurmm... aku sndri x de jwpan nya... tp x dpt ku bygkan jika Allah meninggalkan aku walaupun untk sesaat.. x thu lah mcm mana agaknya hdup aku... ermm... esk aku ada 3 kls.. start kol 8 lg... kene bgn awl lah esk nampaknya.... :)

12 June 2012

Hari aku rsa penat skit... i dont know why i feel tired today... i only have 2 class for today.... hmmm... ari nie aku kena daftar untk koko.... aku nak ambik institusi kekeluargaan tp yg aku dpt adlh debat bhsa melayu!!!!! x prnh tlintas pun difikiran aku nak ambik debat.... is really a nightmare for me.... dah lah koko tu msk dlm result exam aku... mcm mna lah aku nak past debat sedangkan aku nie seorang yg pemalu n takut utk ckp di dpn org rmai... aku x leh nak bayangkan mcm mna lah nnt agaknya..... hmmmm so sad..... :(

11 June 2012

Hari aku masuk kls typing n bbm.... For omt 182 lecturer x msuk lg.... bru je msuk 2 kls tu dah ckp mendebarkan aku... i kept wondering whether i can type that fast..... ari khamis nie Puan Shafini nak tgk skill kito org dlm typing... itu wat aku tkut sbb aku takut klu aku yg plg lmbt typing dlm kls tu.... hmmmm.... msuk kls bbm plop... itu pun kls yg mendebarkan jgk... aku kene n wajib akan pengucapan awam... that really scary... i memang x leh ckp kat dpn.... aku msih rsa takut n segan.... hmmm.. ape lah aku nak wat bila tiba waktunya nnt... comfirm... sejuk satu bdn dibuatnya.... Pgi nie aku jumpa ngan Sir Amri.... lecturer bel aku masa sem 1.... yg pling mengejutkan is that he still remember my name... aku ingat dia dah lupa dah... :)

Mood msh dlm bcuti..... tp dah kene blik g campus.... sedih nye rsa!!!!!! walaupun bru sekejap bpisah ngan family tp dah rndu kat all family.... rindu kan adib n sya..... walaupun kadang2 dio org wat aku hilang kesabaran  ngan dio org tp mereka jgk yg dpt menghilangkan segala masalah n juga stress bila tgk muka mereka... Tgk senyuman n gelak tawa mereka membuatkan hatiku tenang.. Aku ingin terus mendengar gelak mereka..... Bg permulaan sem 2 ia amat mendebarkan aku... Aku tkt utk bdepan ngan sem 2.... adakah ia akan menjadi lbh mengerikan dri sem 1????? aku amat berharap agar aku berjaya melepasi sem 2 tanpa mempunyai byk mslh.... what i'm trying to do here is just to make both my parents happy with... aku ingin slalu lihat wajah mereka berseri dgn senyuman.... i love my family so much..... :)

Sepupuku suamiku......

At last dpt juga aku habiskan bca novel sepupuku suamiku.... Hehehe... Aku dah belinya dah lma tp nak habiskan punyalah mls.... Nak wat mcm mana... Aku nie terlalu " rjin" sgt bca buku.... Hehehe... Is very interesting reading that novel..... Berkahwin dgn sepupu sndri.... Hmmmmm.... Walaupun x prnh tlintas di hati jejaka tu utk Kawin ngan his cousin but klu sdh jodoh x ke mna kan.... Walaupun bahagia bru dtg menjengah tp badai cukup hbt melanda perkahwinan antara Hisyam n Nana.... Itu semua gara2 ex-fiancée nya Hisyam.... Apa yg peliknya ppuan tu yg memutuskan p'tunangan diorg.... Tp alih2 nak blik plok... Apa dia ingat laki tu ank patung ape... X de perasaan... She should accept that he already marry somelse.... Nothing can be done... Damage has been done... So x de gunanya utk menyesal keputasan yg diambil.... Sanggup dia memusnahkan perkahwinan laki itu semata2 utk mndptkan cinta n memeliki Hisyam kembali.... Maybe cause she really love that man but she need to accept that he is not belong to her anymore.... She is the one you make that decision.... Btl kata org sbb kan cinta org sanggup wat ape saja... sama mcm Marina... Sanggup lakukan apa sja utk dptkan Hisyam blik walaupun ngan membunuh Nana... sampai jdi Sekejam itu seorg wanita disbb cnta.... Org ckp cinta itu buta tp sebenarnya Kita yg membutakan hati Kita ngan cinta yg x sepatutnya menjadi milik Kita... I can understand how regret Marina is.... But what she done is too much... She should try to accept it even it is hard cause she is the one who make that make that decision last time ago.... At last she become insane.... She lost everything in her life.... Dia jdi x suiman disbbkan cinta.... Kesian Jgk kan dia... Tp nak wat mcm mna dia yg wat dirinya mcm tu... Nana Pulak spttnya pthnkankan perkahwinan dia n Hisyam.... Tp I can understand her feeling... Isteri mna yg x tluka bila thu suaminya kene tangkap khalwat ngan ppuan tu.... N lps tu siap ckp yg dia pregnant lg.... Isteri mna lah yg sggup hadapi semua tu.... Tp klu sdh dittpkan Tuhan yg Nana n Hisyam ditakdirkan utk bsama walaupun mereka tlh berpisah tp mereka bersatu kembali.... N now they happy without any distraction.... N Marina pulak berada di hospital skit mental disbbkan terlalu mengikut perasaannya sndri.... Marina kehilangan segalanya t'masuk her job... Tp mujurlah ada kwn yg sentiasa di sisinya... Yg sggup dtg menjenguk nya slalu di hospital n bhrp Marina cpt sembuh n me lupakan Hisyam.... That the end of that story.... Now I'm on the way to read another novel... Hope can finish it as fast as I can.... :)