31/7/2012

there is something that make me pretty annoyed today... this what you get when considering other people heart.. if only this you from it then it must be more more more more better to a heartless person to that person... from now on i will not going to considerate her feeling anymore n she really managed make me hate her so so so much... i know being this way is wrong but she is totally rude n dont know to respect others.. i dont think that she dont know anything about it.. i really hate that person now... even seeing her face make me hate more... i know it not inappropriate to be this way but i dont why i get angry like this... n i really hope that Allah show me the way to remove this feeling cause i know there is nothing that i can get from being angry and hate toward her... so i dont want to waste my time cause hating somebody... :-)

28/7/2012

 I really do miss my mom... when i talk to her yesterday i feel like i want to cry... is really not fun when you apart from your family... is feel like something is missing... i do feel lonely without my family with me... i only can come back home on 15/8... i miss her cooking... hmmmm... my stomach is getting well today... i felt much more better today... is really great to my stomach back to normal... hehehehe... i finally finish watching personal taste... i think In Hee really love Gae In as her friends... cause from what In Hee did when they are still friends shows that she love her like her family... mybe she just to ego to admit it cause she just stab
her friend back from behind... what Gae In said is true if she continue behaving like this no one will stay beside her... she will continue to live alone the whole life... yesterday i chatting with this guy that really believe in science n said the Quran is made by human kind n he also believe that people want to explore Prophet Muhammad grave because want to know whether Prophet Muhammad is really exist or not... hmm.. that really make me feel annoying... he is too believe in science then what should i say.. mybe i not a great muslim that know everything about my own religion but i still learning it n i know what my believe is totally right... :)

27/7/2012

betapa x best nya berbuka puasa kat hostel.. berbuka puasa pun sorang2... sahur pun sorang2.. i miss  my family.. i hope that now i can fast-breaking with them... actually now i dont know what i need to eat for fast-breaking n sahur... hmmm... yesterday i got stomachache... until today i still have it.. i dont why my stomach is so hurt mybe because what i eat on sahur yesterday... but it really not convenient that your stomach hurt on ramadan... i dont why that when come to assignment we always do love to do it last minute... just like my last sem... we do assignment for our office subject at last minute... n for sure we need to sleep late at night since there is a lot of thing that we need to do.. but thank to God that i have better group this time than previous.. n we do manage to send it yesterday.. yesterday also i got my mark for business subject quiz... Alhamdulillah i got quite a better mark... so today i plan to finish my personal taste drama.... n hope that my stomach will get well soon... :)

21/7/2012

Today is my last day being at home... even my parent quite busy with their work but i understand that they need to work to make our life comfortable... i dont care if they busy with their work as long as i can still start my fasting with them... i can bersahur with them n also berbuka puasa dgn mereka... that really really really mean a lot for me..... i can also play with my sister n my brother... and today will be last day i will be playing with them... the last day for me to hear their laughter... i will going to miss it... after today i will going to start my life at university just like usual... i still remember when my mom was pregnant.... i just cannot accept that i will have another sis n bro... but now when i was far from them n when they born i really feel peace n happy n miss them a lot when i far from them even in the beginning i cannot accept it when my mom told me that i will going to have another sis n bro... but now they are really meaningful to me just like my other sister n brothers... i really love my family a lot... hmmm... it really sad when i thinking i cannot play with them anymore but i know i need go back to university to achieve my dream in my life n to make my family proud with me... i hope they will be always fine when i'm gone n this ramadan is my best ramadan in my life... Thank you Allah for everything that You gave to me... :)

18/7/2012

it quite long time since i dont update my blog... i dont have time to update it... so i will go home this thursday... i'm really really really excited about it... it mean that i can have my first day ramadan with my family... it is interesting right?? hehehehe.... i already finished my public speaking for my bbm last sunday.. i think it went well but i still get  nerveous...hmmm... today i'm supposed to have a quiz but my lecturer postpone it to next wednesday.. i already it all the chap n even get up on 5 am to finished reading it... but it does not matter cause i still cannot remember it well so it quite a relieved that he postpone it... so i hope i can do better in this quiz n much much much better than my business quiz... ermmm.. today i suddenly remember about my past life... when i'm thinking about it again i think it was really really really a stupid thing i do... i suppose not to do that.. sometimes i'm asking myself when are you thinking back then until you let it happen... mybe it is right when u feel very happy u will never can make ur brain think right... hmmm... it is really silly thing that i should never do it back then... but it already happen... that is a lesson that i need to learn... but do i really regret about it??? hmmm... i still cannot give answer to it... but i think God know it much more better than me n i really thank to Allah cause it all end here... cause i know that is the best thing to do... Thank you Allah for stop all the thing here... even it hard to forget it but i think i can manage it... Cause i know Allah is always with me n He never leave me but i am the only one who leave Him.. Thank you Allah for everything you gave me... even You take back your happiness u gave me in my first sem but you still gave me a loving n caring family that love me so much... n that is all i needed... my family is everything for me.... so just let forget about the past like it never happen in ur life... go on your life just like before... it much more better if my life just like before... it is only me, my family, my relatives, my friends n my korean man that i loved... heheheheheheh..... it more much fun leaving that way... oh right before i forget... i really regret taking debat for my koko... it make my life more stress... cause there still a lot of thing that i need to do in there.. it always have work that i need to do.. it really stress but still i hope i can do better in it.. cause i dont want to fail in that subject.. hope i can hang on it until my third sem... :)

15/7/2012

 today i have public speaking for bbm... i still connot overcome my nerves when stood up in front of the class... that quite really disappointed right?? what i need to do to overcome it... hmmm..... tomorrow i had a quiz.... that will be not fun... i only have one class today... am quite free today... i really do miss my mother a lot... i wish she is here with me.. today also i watch personal taste ep 6.... it really nice to have a friend that you could tell to him or her everything.... that can give advice to you when u needed... it will really fun right???? x lama lg ramadan akan menjelma... bln yg penuh kemuliaan.. n i really hope that i can fasting with my parent... ia adlh sesuatu yg indah bila dpt bbuka puasa bersama family n dapat prepare mknan bbuka puasa bsama family... hmmm... kerja makin lama makin byk... it need to be done before i went back to my beloved hometown to celebrate hari raya... but if u only say it did not do anything the work never be done right.. so i need to start work fast so i can really really really enjoy my hari raya with my family... :)

14/7/2012

on thursday i have business quiz... it not going quite well for me... i really envy my friends cause i know she do well in that quiz... it really nice feeling to know that u can do well in ur quiz... the best feeling is when you can do something do to ur family... i bought 5 burger to my family cause i know my sister love to it that burger.. it just a nice feeling when you can buy something to ur family.. i really do enjoy having my family here... is really feel good... Adib.. he can walk now... it really make me happy to see him can walk n for Qalesya... she become more active... how i really wish that time can stop there... so that i can spend more time with them... but for me to be separated with my family still come.... it really a sad moment for me... cause that will be the last hug from my mother... and after that i need to live my life here just like before.... ramadan is coming sooner... n i really hope that it will time that i can berbuka puasa with my family... :) ... just now i just watching personal taste... sometimes being too nice n too innocence in love or to somebody is not right to do cause it can will hurt us... hmm... so do we need to be evil... sometimes i dont understand when we be too nice with people n there will be a time that people will stab us from the back... why??? just like what happen in this drama... she n that girl have friends for almost 10 years n that girl will get marry with ur bf... how could she do that to her friend... she really just  a bad bad bad girl... hmmm... why there is a human like that... she really a selfish girl... i think she never appreciate her friendship with her friend... that why she could do that.. a friends that we can call them a friends is she will always beside us whether we happy or sad... n always give her friends encouragement when we are start to give up on something... what the most important is she is sincere in this friendship... that what is true friends do... :)

10/7/2012

finally i finished watching heartstring.... it really must be weird when a man ask to break up when both u are just fine together n the reason quite not reasonable... i think mybe it is true that when you apart with your lover you will quite lonely n it can drive both their heart further away but if you love each other so much then it would not be a problem right... but in this drama Shin want to break up because he want Gyu Won chase her dream... it must be really really really hurt right.. cause u still love each other so much... even you try so hard forget that person.. it really sure that it will be so hard.. it will take many years to do that... aku prnh dgr ado org kata for us to know somebody it will take only a short time but us to forger it, it will take a longer time for u to do so... i think that it true.. it easy for u to someone but to forget is really hard... it will be going to be hard since there will a lot of wonderful memory that will you remember always.. that memory is not easy to deleted like we easy delete something in our comp when we dont want it.. so something that u need to believe in love is when both of u are destiny to be together then you will be together even how hard your love story are.. hehehehe since when i become expert in love... hehehehe... but that happen to Shin Gyu Won... they are back together cause they really love so much even they already broke up for about 1 year.. so happy cause the ending is nice.. love to see them together... :)

8/7/2012

lega... lega..... aku ingat aku dah kene wat bbm tadi... bkn main aku bdbr nak msuk kls tu n in the end the result is i do not have to do it today.. that make me feel relive.. buy still i need to do it next week n i really hope that i dont feel really really nervous... when i feel nervous i will forget all the thing that i memorized... it really something bad if i cannot remember it.... why i always nervous when i need to talk in the front... why is still hard for me to speak in front other people??? how can i atasi it??? btw in middle of a lot work i need to do i still can watch heartstring... it really a nice drama....i really likes yonghwa in that drama.... he look sweet in that drama.... :) ...... on thursday there will be a quiz... that is really something not fun at all... hope i can do well in that quiz... tomorrow my class start at 8 o'clock... i really lazy to wake up in the morning... :( .... i cannot think what i should write here right now cause i so so so so sleepy right now... so i just want to go to bed  to have a nice sleep n of course a nice n sweet dream... :)

6/7/2012

i will going crazy if it continue like this.... Ya Allah please help me... that why i hate to see love story... cause i   want to like it too... even i know that will never going to happen to me... why it look like i so desperate to fall in love with someone.. why i feel like that???? it is really like something wrong with my brain... i have tan of work that i need to do but now what i only thinking will there will going to have some guy will love me with his sincere heart n will take of me... will try to make me cheer up when i sad... will going to pujuk me when i merajuk... it really tired thinking of that... why i always feel that when i see love story??? i just want to be that girl like in heartstring drama... is really so sweet n i hope i can be that girl even i know it is only acting.. it must happy if it is reality.. n i will be that girl... it will going to be nice right??? it really really killing me... i need to focus on my study i should not ruin my life because of this thinking... are you crazy??? why be like this?? dont make yourself like this... for almost 19 years you leave without someone call man love u n u can still happy n u need to keep that way... dont be stupid okay... i cannot break my parent heart.... i must them happy... you are strong girl lynne.. you can do it.. fighting!!!!!! leave the love matter to God.. He know better than u n live ur life like always... just like old life... you will going to be fine... believe what ur heart say... is okay live life without man... you will never die because of it... forget about it for a while n focus on ur study.. there is a lot of thing that need to be done... stop seeing that korean love drama for a while n focus on your work... just dont be so weak cause of love thing... you need to wake up from that dream... dont always daydreaming about something that make u hurt... live ur life happily... cause u deserve it... :) .... aja aja fighting!!!! fighting!!!!!

"In order for the light to shine so brightly, the darkness must be present"

(Francis Bacon)

5/7/2012

my life quite change right  now... i feel really lonely n i really need someone that can make me happy.. do i need a bf right now??? is quite funny thing for me right??? i live without having bf for almost 19 years.. and i really fine with it... but why sometimes you will feel that you need someone call man to fill the emptiness in your heart... to make u cheer up n make u feel to be loved by somebody call man.. lucu plop klu aku yg bcrita ttg hal mcm nie.. tp aku jgk ppuan yg punya perasaan... tipulah klu aku kata yg aku x prnh rsa nak bcinta.. cuma aku je yg cuba singkirkan perasaan aku itu dgn pelbagai cra so i dont think about having a bf... hmmm... i really feel empty right now... dont know what to do... to study i really feel lazy to study even doing my homework also i feel lazy... a lot of things that i need to be done actually but i dont have an idea to write bahasa melayu essay right now.. is really quite a long time since i dont write bm essay so for me to create an idea is will took some time... but time is already running out.. what i should do?? hope the idea will come soon so that i can do bm essay n also prepare for my public speaking... hope i can do well in both of it... :)

"If we do not maintain justice, justice will not maintain us"

( Francis Bacon)