Totally over THAT MATTER!!! REALLLLLYYYYYYYYYYYYYY?????????

ALL IN THE DARK WE GROPE ALONG

AND IF WE GO AMISS

WE LEARN AT LEAST WHICH PATH IS WRONG

AND THERE IS GAIN IN THIS

WE DO NOT ALWAYS WIN THE RACE

BY ONLY RUNNING RIGHT

WE HAVE TO TREAD THE MOUNTAIN'S BASE

BEFORE WE REACH ITS HEIGHT 

-ELLA WHEELER WILCOX-

Finally I did understand something from all of this

from all crushing thing

sometimes not all we wanted will become ours

just like i really hoping that will be something between us

even i'm the only one that like you

i don't really know what you felt toward me btw

BUT

now i know that you are NOT for me

it true that i felt hurt and startled when my friend told me you already have someone

BUT

i know now that the feeling is just nothing

being far away from you 

make me thinking what actually i felt toward you

and it is nothing 

plain

just nothing

i don't miss you

BUT

it is true when i came back to the university

i will start remember everything back

BUT

i know it is just nothing

cause it is nothing

you do not mean anything to me

you just a friend

only a friend

the person to be blame for all this

is my own feeling

i'm the one who get really excited over little thing

even it is just nothing

i have to admit that my feeling is easily shaken up

i really hope this will be the last thing happen to me

cause i don't want to crush or fall in love with someone that wasn't meant for me

sooooooooooooooo goodbye to you

i'm hoping when new semester start

i can face you like nothing happen in my heart

let put all of this behind

and

focus on my study 

it is much more important than anything

when the time right i will find my own Mr. Right

:)

Mother's smile

A mother's smile

that will make your life happy

that make your life feel alive

that will make your sorrow become happiness

that will make your day brighter

that will give you strength to pass through this life

and you don't want to erase that smile from her face

you want to wake up seeing that smiling face

you always want to give her happiness

and you will do anything as long as she is happy

you want to keep that smile for the rest of your life

because of her

you have a life in this world

thank you mother for everything

that's my mom

i love her forever

she mean everything for me

love you mom!!!!

OH EXAM!!!!

can you ever ever ever imagine
after burning a midnight oil to study
hoping at least among all you read
there will some of those you read
will come out in the exam
but!!!!!
nothing
almost what you read last night did not come out
only one, two or may be 3 question came out
but the rest
huhhhhhhh!!!!
what a huge disappointment
isn't it????

What on earth are you thinking???!!!

OMG

what on earth that you have been dreaming last night

before you went to sleep i was like want to sent him a message

asking whether he want that test paper or not

but well done to yourself

cause you said no

that was not the best thing you should do

so BIG CLAP TO YOURSELF

but why you dreaming of sending message to him in your sleep

you must really want to sent him message

aren't you????

thankfully you don't do that

if not you will be look like stupid

please stop doing something that will make you look stupid

ok baby???

cause something you sure about him is

#youknowthatisthebest

ok next story

what on earth did that person think

how could she hit that little girl

poor her

she just 5 years old

and you hit her

make her starving

she is only 15kg now

how cruel the world is

even she is your step daughter

how could she do that

does she don't have any heart

i hope Allah will punish that woman as she deserve too

that make me remember my little sis and my little bro

both of them just like my sunshine

even they sometimes are really naughty 

but they color your day and life as a sister

miss both of them so much 

you know what i mean

can't wait to go home

MISS THEM SO SO MUCH!!!

THEY ARE MY EVERYTHING

THEY ARE MY WORLD

 

All About Yesterday

happy and feel good when dreaming about HIM

yeah even i think it the best for me to be only friend with him but still 

oh my dream

why you still dreaming of him

dreaming his smile

and he is cute when smiling

hahahahahahaha

funny isn't it

you were going to take final exam at 2:15 pm yesterday

and yesterday after sahur

you find something that will make you laugh

even it is nit the time to be funny

which is 

YOU ARE DOING A WRONG PAST YEAR EXAM

cause that is not your code

how interesting that can be

and yet you are blaming your lecturer for not teaching what suppose to be taught

and you know what

you are the who are wrong

serve you right

Thank God that i still have some time to do the right past year exam

even on the day i'm going to answer the real one on that day

FUNNY ISN'T IT?????

suddenly in the middle of answering my exam yesterday

i felt really really nervous

like nervous like hell

you suppose to be happy cause the question is similar with the past year exam you just did that morning

even i can't answer it like 100% 

cause there was still some question like 3 or 4 question that i don't the answer

but 

why i still being that nervous

people should be nervous before you start answering your question

not in the middle of it

unless you can't answer it

so the question is

DO YOU?

when someone you never thought done that

you will became speechless

and you are wondering why that person is like that

you had known that person

even not for long

but for that person to do that

you seem unreasonable

but that the truth

so so so so SPEECHLESS

that the word that came to your mind 

when heard that story

NeW LiFe??? MaYbE

a new start of my life 

after a big fuss i made for myself

the truth about love

well you don't know nothing about it

maybe i do like him but to love him

well that is unsure 

you are the one who choose to think to much about it

you are the one who choose to be sad 

you should not blame anyone for that

consider your feeling first

that what's important

don't let your feeling hurt

it is not time for love

it is time to love your own Creator, Allah

take a really deep deep breath 

and start  a new chapter

really a new chapter

don't be sad on something that don't worth for it

remember Allah and your heart and mind will be at ease...

new chapter of my life

Alhamdulillah I'm finally passed my driving test
I'm so happy about it
But it's still torn my heart apart
I'm so frustrated with myself
Cause even though I'm getting my P license
I still can't drive properly
Actually it is worst
It really broke my heart
I really really really want to drive a car
So badly I want it
But I just can't figure it out
Why am I so nervous when facing a lot a lot of cars in front of me... Huhuhuhu
It make me want to cry...

18/5/2014

alhamdulillah my result already came out on 9 may
i'm so so so satisfied with it
now i can gladly said my mission is completed...
everything that i done for my diploma year is really worth it...
i'm so happy for myself
cause at first i don't even think i can get through it
but alhamdulillah it turn out different..
thank you so much to all my lecturers for teaching me
thank you so much to my family for always supporting me
cause of that now i finally can graduate my diploma with a smiling face... :D


okey
i know it will going to sound little crazy
ok...
it may sound crazy
but
i just totally madly in love with STEVE MCGARRET
since i watching HAWAII FIVE 0
i just start to love him so much
it like i'm heads over heels with him
i really love his character in that tv show
because i like him so i did a little bit research about him
and i found out that he already married and have one baby
he just get married this year
but
i frankly don't care that
cause i only like him in that tv show
hehehehehe
plus i think he is so hot and handsome...
hehehehe
(gatal bnor nmpok... huhuhu)
x pelah just seeing him in the dream should be ok for me
hahahahaha...


my MUET will be start on 23 june
so wish me the best ok
hope i can get through it well
:)


finally
i get lesen L
so
tomorrow i will start driving again
i'm quite afraid by the way
i'm telling you seriously that i'm not really good with
remembering road
that will be a problem for me...
hope i can drive well tomorrow...
good luck my dear self
drive well ok...
;)

all about last week

i finally took my driver license
it quite terrifying
cause i never have in mind to drive a car
but my mom told me to take it
so i don't have a choice..
i already finish my law examination..
alhamdulillah i pass it well
tomorrow i will have driving lesson..
it freak me out a little bit
i afraid if i can't do well
just hoping i can do well tomorrow..


i have really a great news for me
which is my examination result will coming out
on 9th may...
i'm totally totally afraid and worried..
i'm just afraid if it did not turn out in good way..
how am i going to face my parent if my result is worst
am not pray for bad thing happen
but i just want to prepare for the worst even deep deep below my heart
i wish it will not happen...
i really really hope my result will be fine for my last semester
really hope that...


i'm notice that i'm quite fat right now
since i'm being home
eating and sleeping is the most favourite things that i love to do
so i just know that my weight is gain..
i hate that
i want to start diet
but i just cannot hold myself to stop eating when i'm not that really hungry..
what should i do
i don't want to gain a lot more of weight..
i must to do something
if not
all my clothe will not going to suit me anymore
and that will going to be DISASTER!!!!


even my muet will be in june
but i am worried now..
i'm afraid that i can't even pass band (sorry if i spelled it wrongly) 3
i know that my vocabulary is not that high
btw i really mean it...
i tried to read english book right now..
yeah i know that will start get boring easily reading it
but tried my best to force myself to read english book
so that i can be prepare well for my muet...
i hope that i can do well.... :)

DATING

at last i finally have a chance to have a date with my beloved friend..
hahahahaha..
i really really really happy to see her
n i hoping to see mimi and wahida too
i hope to see them sooner...
btw both of us have our lovely lunch at SEOUL GARDEN...
which make our stomach want to burst out
because there is too much food to eat...
it make me feel full until night..
it such a wonderful day today...
went shopping with her...
it just make my day for today..
tq nik for such wonderful day today...
n i hope that mimi and wahida can join us sooner
so that we can go out together..
can't wait until that day to happen...

the end of my diploma year

Alhamdulillah i just finished my diploma year 2 days ago

so no more books or classes for me...

just waiting for my last semester result..

hoping that the result will gonna be okay..

i really hope that...

even though it is fun to finish my diploma year

but deep inside my heart

i feel sad

cause i will never see my classmate, my friends and my roommate again...

it is really sad when thinking about it...

but i really thankful to know all of them...

cause i know there must be a reason for me to meet all of them...

setiap perjumpaan pasti akn perpisahannya...

so this is my perpisahan with all the friends that i meet in uitm terengganu..

i'm hoping one day i can meet all of them again...

amin... :)

last paper already end!!! :)

alhmdulillah my last paper for my last semester is already end

it's mean the end of my diploma year!!!!

hope my result is ok

n no subject that i have to repeat (really really really hope that not happen)

thank you to my beloved lecturer Madam Hafiza for the BBQ at her home last night

than you so so so much!!!

i will miss all of this....

even though it is happy finishing my diploma..

but it still quite sad 

cause i will never meet my friends here again

except in facebook..

huhuhuhu

my lovely holiday.....

after quite a few days sleep late
and wake up early in the morning
at last i finally can sleep in peace
without dreaming of answering question
even though i got one more paper left
but i have 5 days break before my last paper
so i can use 2 days break to relax myself
and of course prepare for my final battle...
hahahahahaha...
:)

28/3/2014

alhamdulillah i'm finally finishing my law final examination yesterday

alhamdulillah i guess i did pretty well... 

2 more to go 

before i'm finally finishing my diploma year as a om student....

i really hope everything went well for this semester..

i can't want to go home..

and not coming back here...

huhuhuhu...

last night i watched twilight again..

i don't know how many time i watch it...

but still i like to watch it...

hehehehe..

cannot wait to how my teen wolf drama will end...

after watching this season 3..

i finally realise that stiles is pretty cute too..

not just pretty cute..

but he is actually cute..

love to see him in that drama... :)

worried...

when knowing all of my carry mark....
it make me worried...
it is not like i'm not grateful with i get..
it just..
i'm thinking
it is enough for me to maintain my GPA for this sem???
and can i really really do well in this final exam..
it make me hard to breath when thinking about that...
it just like there is not enough air for me to breath right now...
sometimes i just wish that time can just stop even for one second..
for me to take a deep deep and really deep breath...


takziah diucpkan utk keluarga passenger and crew MH370..
it really a heart broken when knowing that news....
i can't really image how sad their family will be...
hope they can stay strong.....

24/3/2014

Alhamdulillah..
sudah selesai satu exam..
just 3 more to go....
but when thinking about
what i did just now on my ent
final exam...
there is a lot of confusing...
especially in true/false and multiple
question....
but i really hope that i do not get too much wrong..
i'm quite feel pity with the pengawas exam yg jga my class
because of me
they need to wait until the exam finish.. hihihihi...
i have to do that because there is some question that
i confuse with
if not i will go out early... (iye ke??? hahahaha)
btw i hope i get better mark for final
better than my mid term ent...
tonight..
for sure i will get my completely completely rest....
cause tomorrow time to struggle for my law...
huhuhuhu.....

20/3/2014

Alhamdulillah my sister got 5A in her spm...
i hope it will a great present for her
since today is her birthday...
happy birthday my sweet beloved sister...
hope u will have a bright future ahead of u...
and u know that i love u so so much...


final exam is coming soon
it make my heart worry
but i pray that everything will
going to be fine..
i really hope that...
amin...

back to Terengganu

it not like i hate being here but
the truth is i actually hate being here
i have to think what am i going to it
for like every day
and always buy the same food...
:'(
i was thinking
was i made the right decision to come
here early
or do it make the worse decision ever...
i know that this place is the place
where a gain knowledge
but in other hand
i miss my family
i want to stay longer with them
and yet here i am
back to Terengganu
when my final exam is on 24 mac
which is about 1 week i stay here
before my final start
and it not that fun...
i want to home again
and eat something that my mom cook
huhuhuhu..
how sad it is..
here i don't know who am i going to talk with
and all am i doing it just watching this laptop...
somehow i just regret my decision... hmmm...

finally home... :D

Alhamdulillah....
i'm finally home right now...
it feels so so so so great being home...
no more test, no more. quizes and no more assignment..
what left is only final exam...
wish me the best ok.. :)
i'm so glad being home..
i'm always eating, eating n eating..
my mom and sis make me pizza n spaghetti for me yesterday..
and today
my mom will make me mee curry!!!!!!!!!!!
i'm looking forward for it....
dah lama dah mengidam nak mkn mee kari..
and today it will be a dream come true...
thank you so so so much my dearest family
for making a lot of food for me...
sbb aku nie dah lama asyik mkn mknan
beli..
i'm so bored with it...
so for now
i just want to eat what my mom cook
hehehehehe... :)

test,quiz,assignment,presentation...

i feel so tired this week
tired with reading
read, read n read...
but
Alhamdulillah
i already finish my law common test
what left to be done for this week is just
two more quizes on admin
one more quiz on account
two more presentation on ent and admin
one more comprehensive test for my bel
and of course i need to submit my ent assign this week
after that i'm going home!!!!!
just wait for my exam
n after that i'm done with my semester 5....
just be patient
it will end soon
just hanging on there my dear beloved lin...
u can do it...
:)