Totally over THAT MATTER!!! REALLLLLYYYYYYYYYYYYYY?????????

ALL IN THE DARK WE GROPE ALONG

AND IF WE GO AMISS

WE LEARN AT LEAST WHICH PATH IS WRONG

AND THERE IS GAIN IN THIS

WE DO NOT ALWAYS WIN THE RACE

BY ONLY RUNNING RIGHT

WE HAVE TO TREAD THE MOUNTAIN'S BASE

BEFORE WE REACH ITS HEIGHT 

-ELLA WHEELER WILCOX-

Finally I did understand something from all of this

from all crushing thing

sometimes not all we wanted will become ours

just like i really hoping that will be something between us

even i'm the only one that like you

i don't really know what you felt toward me btw

BUT

now i know that you are NOT for me

it true that i felt hurt and startled when my friend told me you already have someone

BUT

i know now that the feeling is just nothing

being far away from you 

make me thinking what actually i felt toward you

and it is nothing 

plain

just nothing

i don't miss you

BUT

it is true when i came back to the university

i will start remember everything back

BUT

i know it is just nothing

cause it is nothing

you do not mean anything to me

you just a friend

only a friend

the person to be blame for all this

is my own feeling

i'm the one who get really excited over little thing

even it is just nothing

i have to admit that my feeling is easily shaken up

i really hope this will be the last thing happen to me

cause i don't want to crush or fall in love with someone that wasn't meant for me

sooooooooooooooo goodbye to you

i'm hoping when new semester start

i can face you like nothing happen in my heart

let put all of this behind

and

focus on my study 

it is much more important than anything

when the time right i will find my own Mr. Right

:)

Mother's smile

A mother's smile

that will make your life happy

that make your life feel alive

that will make your sorrow become happiness

that will make your day brighter

that will give you strength to pass through this life

and you don't want to erase that smile from her face

you want to wake up seeing that smiling face

you always want to give her happiness

and you will do anything as long as she is happy

you want to keep that smile for the rest of your life

because of her

you have a life in this world

thank you mother for everything

that's my mom

i love her forever

she mean everything for me

love you mom!!!!

OH EXAM!!!!

can you ever ever ever imagine
after burning a midnight oil to study
hoping at least among all you read
there will some of those you read
will come out in the exam
but!!!!!
nothing
almost what you read last night did not come out
only one, two or may be 3 question came out
but the rest
huhhhhhhh!!!!
what a huge disappointment
isn't it????

What on earth are you thinking???!!!

OMG

what on earth that you have been dreaming last night

before you went to sleep i was like want to sent him a message

asking whether he want that test paper or not

but well done to yourself

cause you said no

that was not the best thing you should do

so BIG CLAP TO YOURSELF

but why you dreaming of sending message to him in your sleep

you must really want to sent him message

aren't you????

thankfully you don't do that

if not you will be look like stupid

please stop doing something that will make you look stupid

ok baby???

cause something you sure about him is

#youknowthatisthebest

ok next story

what on earth did that person think

how could she hit that little girl

poor her

she just 5 years old

and you hit her

make her starving

she is only 15kg now

how cruel the world is

even she is your step daughter

how could she do that

does she don't have any heart

i hope Allah will punish that woman as she deserve too

that make me remember my little sis and my little bro

both of them just like my sunshine

even they sometimes are really naughty 

but they color your day and life as a sister

miss both of them so much 

you know what i mean

can't wait to go home

MISS THEM SO SO MUCH!!!

THEY ARE MY EVERYTHING

THEY ARE MY WORLD

 

All About Yesterday

happy and feel good when dreaming about HIM

yeah even i think it the best for me to be only friend with him but still 

oh my dream

why you still dreaming of him

dreaming his smile

and he is cute when smiling

hahahahahahaha

funny isn't it

you were going to take final exam at 2:15 pm yesterday

and yesterday after sahur

you find something that will make you laugh

even it is nit the time to be funny

which is 

YOU ARE DOING A WRONG PAST YEAR EXAM

cause that is not your code

how interesting that can be

and yet you are blaming your lecturer for not teaching what suppose to be taught

and you know what

you are the who are wrong

serve you right

Thank God that i still have some time to do the right past year exam

even on the day i'm going to answer the real one on that day

FUNNY ISN'T IT?????

suddenly in the middle of answering my exam yesterday

i felt really really nervous

like nervous like hell

you suppose to be happy cause the question is similar with the past year exam you just did that morning

even i can't answer it like 100% 

cause there was still some question like 3 or 4 question that i don't the answer

but 

why i still being that nervous

people should be nervous before you start answering your question

not in the middle of it

unless you can't answer it

so the question is

DO YOU?

when someone you never thought done that

you will became speechless

and you are wondering why that person is like that

you had known that person

even not for long

but for that person to do that

you seem unreasonable

but that the truth

so so so so SPEECHLESS

that the word that came to your mind 

when heard that story

NeW LiFe??? MaYbE

a new start of my life 

after a big fuss i made for myself

the truth about love

well you don't know nothing about it

maybe i do like him but to love him

well that is unsure 

you are the one who choose to think to much about it

you are the one who choose to be sad 

you should not blame anyone for that

consider your feeling first

that what's important

don't let your feeling hurt

it is not time for love

it is time to love your own Creator, Allah

take a really deep deep breath 

and start  a new chapter

really a new chapter

don't be sad on something that don't worth for it

remember Allah and your heart and mind will be at ease...

new chapter of my life

Alhamdulillah I'm finally passed my driving test
I'm so happy about it
But it's still torn my heart apart
I'm so frustrated with myself
Cause even though I'm getting my P license
I still can't drive properly
Actually it is worst
It really broke my heart
I really really really want to drive a car
So badly I want it
But I just can't figure it out
Why am I so nervous when facing a lot a lot of cars in front of me... Huhuhuhu
It make me want to cry...